second opinion...

finally i went to seek a second opinion from a c specialist from mount e last month... he is renowned in this area and he shares the same sentiment... go for the operation... however the purpose of this operation is to determine whether the cells are dead or alive... if alive... i have to go another 4 cycles of chemo again... do i really have to go through all these again? will decide when i go for my regular doc appt in june and after the scan results...

the flu bug... part 2

the flu bug really take a toil on me... it takes me 3 weeks to recover... was really down and out... glad i m better now and in better condition to travel...

the flu bug...

just recovered from flu not long ago and 2 days ago, i got the feeling of falling sick again... yesterday was bad... down with a bad flu and fever was high... was so worried about the condition and really dun wish to get into a&e again...

however am glad that i am slightly better today and hope to recover soon...

happy new year?...

what a bad last minute ending to year 2007... dad was rushed to hospital in the morning from the polyclinic with some heart or chest pains... however i only get to see him only in the evening... and glad that he is ok when i saw him and waiting for the doctor to come and review him to decide whether to admit or discharge him... finally he got discharged after the results were proven he is well and fine...

today is the new year 2008 and hopefully a fresh brand new beginning...

a happy new year?...

the last day of 2007...

time really flies... is the last of the year 2007... when i was having my treatment during the middle of the year, i was hoping that december would come soon as the treatment will be over... however finally i reached the end of the year, the nightmare is yet to be over...

anyway, glad that i am still able to and the opportunity to wish all my friends out there a happy new year... stay healthy & happy always...

health update...

went to nuh for my chest x ray and lung test today... results showed improvement from the last time.. a good sign indeed but the side effects of the medication is getting bad... my rash is getting worse and now got a see a skin specialist....more implication... another specialist to add on from my current 3... and i could not recover from my flu and now need to take special medication to prevent it from draining my immune system...

it seems never ending... the nightmare is still on...

the battle begins_feb 2007

the brand new year 2007 started rolling in with job and work related stress and i am beginning to feel the strain... am i not being to take stress? not too sure but i am tired... and at the crossroad too... should i stay or should i leave?

this job gave me the best remuneration so far in my career history and somehow got the feeling that at least now i am keeping up with my peers... but do i want to lead a no personal life job? or should i just find a more relax working environment but much lower perks and income? after much deliberation, i chose the latter...

before i leave i decided to go for some medical health screening which i have been holding back for a long time... finally decided to go for a short break holiday while i wait for the results and also embark on a new career...

tragedy strucks when i am back and got the results... a devaasting news which i was not prepared at all... did not expect to happen... i got the big c... the world came crashing down... i was crushed... susceptibly shattered... could not believe my ears when the doc told me that there is nothing could be done now except for immediate operation to remove it... is too late to save it... my mind is in a turmoil... i could not react as fast as i could and at the same time trying to hold back my emotions... i was not left with much choice... doc says must do it fast to prevent it from spreading... i thought i could wait while went back to work and planned to go ahead after work is more settled... however a phone call came from the hospital and was told doc wanted to speak to me urgently... better do now or regret later and the earliest slot was 3rd of chinese new year... just a week away... the rest is history...

things were fine after the operation and went back to work but did not last long as the battle begins when i went for another ct scan after the operations 3 months later...