disappointment after disappointment...

though with so much preparations, the extra guidance from the family members and the intensive grilling by the DM, i still fail to make sense out of the MA paper.. was completely lost in transaction with the variance when i m supposed that i have invested the most time into it but i still stare blankly at the question when i got it in my hands, attempted it with nearly an hour and a half but still could not make sense out of it.... sigh.... really hopeless when comes to figures... destined to be that way.. now only praying for a miracle to happen... think i m going to start my "thank you" speech to all those invloved.....

"thanks to sharon, shirlyn, jeremy, xue li, steven and eileen for all the support in one way or another!!!"

hitting hard after that still fails to trust me into concentration on HRM the following... sharon says i m cool about it... yeah pretending to be cool when in fact i m so worried when i found out she remembers more than me!!! but what can i do?? have to pretend i know everything because she will never believe when i say i m not really prepared.... was lost when i walk in the vast cold exams hall and suddenly everything blank... could not remember what i have just read few hours ago.... guess the worse is i got mixed up the topics and putting the researchers and their research at the wrong places!! what a muddle head.... dun know why i could not concentrate and guess my head is spinning around and a big mess.... everything seems "rojak" in my mind... hm... what is going wrong with me?? study too much?? dun think so as i know i did not put in much effort as i m supposed to with all the time i have comparing with rest... still floating around....

well, well... there goes my 2nd and 3rd papers.....

how will i fare in my last paper which is supposed to hvae ample time to study?? hm.. looking at the notes today after leaving them on the shelf for a while to concentrate on my earlier three subjects.... i need more time than that to remember all the facts in the notes which suddenly looks alien to me......

alien? hm.... walking corpse v alien?? hm.... who will win the final battle??

what else!!! watch this column for the results!!!!

stand by for action on the 8 june.... right after my icp!

vesak long weekend!!!

while everyone is preparing for their trips for the super long weekend holidays, here i m struggling in the library, burying myself with those boring books!!! worse of all, is HRM!! so sleepy and tired!!

back to back papers next thursday and friday is MA followed by HRM..... sigh..... hope the agony is over soon!!!

but that is not over yet!! still got another paper on 8 june 2005!!! hope it will be lucky as with the number on that day!!

however, still so unprepared with so many things still digesting in progress....

here i m .... in library... waiting for the library to close.... which means i m going home!!! hehehehe.... waiting for that moment in time.....!!

My first entry

Well, this blog wasnt set up by me.. in fact it was by Sharon..

and also this entry is not done by me...in fact it was by Eileen..

So what's the purpose of all this? Just to have another site to visit when u are feeling bored in the Library.. and having so-called someone to "hear" me.

But, in fact, I am not that kind of guy who will write and express my feelings to others... not even real life.. those who know me, know me as a "walking corpse" as I proudly claimed myself to be.

Ok.. here I am done with "blogging", just to get close to the "young" and know what they are doing...

Sharon, u shld go update yr blog too, let yr siblings know yr feelings, as u always wanted them too..

cheers!